Back Hallway Fall Decor

With that last post being a s u p e r heavy one I thought I needed to lighten it up a bit over here, but the goal of this space is to keep it real, and lets be honest, real is not warm and fuzzy home projects all the time.

But I do love a good home project or revamp! This weekend I was finally able to go through my fall decor and boy was I running bare.

Most of my stuff were still hand me downs from when we got married 6 years ago so I was in major need of some fall redo.

Michael’s will occasionally do an extra sale from 3-5 PM and this Sunday I got one of those emails –so I basically ran–and I mean ran there during my girl’s nap.

All fall decor was marked down 40% off and starting at three they gave an additional 20% off your total purchase. SCORE!

Faux pumpkins can cost a pretty penny so I was excited to score some great deals! I hurried home to decorate one of my favorite spaces in my house, only problem, I used most of my finds all in this back corner! Good thing I started early this season!

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Faux Pumpkins (similar)Garland– Wreath – old (similar)  – Herb BoxHello Autumn Pillow

Plaid Pillows-TJ Maxx (similar)

Next week I’ll be talking about my Target dollar spot treasures! If you haven’t hit target yet this week…get there girl! Your welcome! ūüôā

xo,
Kate

Back Hallway Fall Decor

It’s Days Like Today Where You Wash Their Hair

Thursday I began a twelve hour day taking report. My co-worker apologetically told me today would be difficult. The patient was doing poorly and it was likely she would pass away  within the next few days.

I listened to report and the anxiety began to overcome me, I’m not made for this type of nursing.

I had 4 patients that day, but one that would need me most.

I saw her first and followed the morning catching up with my other three only to be back in her room in between assessments.

At 10:00 AM my patient’s son had finally made it to the hospital. I met and found him with his face in his palms, sobbing.

These are the moments they don’t and can’t prepare you for in school.

That no one can prepare you for.

I sat across from him discussing things I didn’t want to. Hospice care, comfort measures, his mom’s last wishes, all things that should have been discussed with this family long before today. Thankfully I have an incredible, hands on boss who also sat with the family to discuss their options.

Following that the physician was called and comfort measures would finally begin for this patient. A patient who now had a partially collapsed lung. Breast cancer with mets to the colon and other places in her body. Morphine was¬†given only to be increased quickly due to her pain. Hospice was consulted but bed availability wouldn’t be known until the next day.

The family left late morning and her and I were left together. I swabbed her mouth with sponges and placed lip moisturizer over and over again to make sure her lips wouldn’t completely crack. And then I asked her the most random question, a question which probably doesn’t seem that important to people when someone is dying but I would have done anything to make her comfortable. So I asked,

“Do you want me to wash your hair.”

Her weak head nodded yes and so I did, I washed the little hair she had left.

By late afternoon it was becoming difficult to make her more comfortable. She was anxious so I called her son and requested he come back to her bedside. In between seeing my other patients again I found myself back in her room. This time she didn’t need her hair washed, this time she needed someone to hold her hand.

She was scared. She was alone. And she needed someone. I was her nurse. So there we sat together. She laid with her eyes closed. I held her hand and spoke to God praying over her silently. There we sat. There I cried wiping the tears away quickly in case she opened her eyes because it was me who was supposed to be strong.

I had an hour left in my shift and her son finally arrived back. After updates and more pain medication I left them alone to give report to the next twelve hour nurse coming on.

As I went to leave for the day I peaked in the room one last time and they both were resting peacefully. ¬†I didn’t have the heart to wake them so I left.

I’m never going to be made for this type of nursing, but it’s not my job or decision to decide which type of nursing I’m prepared for because what I need to be is prepared for what my patient needs from me.

But it’s moments like these I’m reminded of what nursing is truly about.

What a privilege it is to be a nurse. What incredible lessons our patients have taught us about life. What incredible opportunities we have been given to participate in their lives. What an incredible career we are able to experience that the rest of this population will never understand.

It’s days like today that you won’t be able to explain as you walk into the door with a tear stained face, only to feel guilty because you know how grateful you should be that you are happy and alive, that your family and friends are in front of you happy and alive.

It’s days like today where you will go to bed and pray for your patients. Where you’ll wake up in the middle of the night and think about them. It’s days like today where the rules of nursing are thrown out the window because what your patient needs right now is not policy and procedure type of nursing, but for you to sit with them at the bedside. For you to hold their hand. It’s days like today where you wash their hair.

It’s days like today where you are tired. So tired. So defeated because you’ll go over again and again in your mind if you could have done more. It’s days like today that will make you a nurse. Days like today with patients you’ll remember for the rest of your life.

It’s days like today that are so hard, yet so humbling. And it’s these patients who will teach you the most about life. What it’s truly all about.

xo,

Kate

It’s Days Like Today Where You Wash Their Hair

Dining Room Table

Our dining room table was passed down to us when we got married and we used that same table for 5 years. It made the move with us to our new home a few years ago and promised myself I would not purchase a new table until I could pay cash for it.

Fast forward to this past winter, I was walking through one of my favorite resale shops and spotted this piece. I actually left the store and got about a mile down the road and called my husband. His immediate response was of course, “How much was it.” When I told him it was only $60 he told me to turn around right now to go back and get it.

I raced back praying it would be there. It was. And then it was ours.

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I refinished the table with Rethunk Junk paint in the color, Cotton and placed a clear coat on the top to protect it. This piece has completely transformed our dining room. And there is just something about an old piece that makes you feel at home.¬†You can feel the history behind it and those feelings don’t fade as the weeks pass by. Little did I know as I waited and waited that this beauty would be waiting for me 5 years later and only cost me $60, but oh how it was worth the wait.

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xo,
Kate

Dining Room Chairs in “Driftwood” from Target.com

 

 

Dining Room Table

She Wasn’t My Plan, but She Was His.

As Mother’s Day is approaching I thought long and hard about this post. This post is raw and I ask that you give me grace if you do not understand the honesty I bring you with my words.

Motherhood scared me to the core. There are many times I look at her and wonder what I ever did to deserve her. Sometimes I think back to the early stages of my pregnancy and a very large lump gathers in my throat ¬†because I was so lost. I had no clue who I was. There were many times when I voiced my fear about being “mom” that people looked at me a little strange, which made me feel even more so that something was truly wrong with me.

Let’s face it, if you’re a woman, motherhood is just¬†something that’s supposed to come naturally to you. But it didn’t for me.

I can remember being six months pregnant sitting in my bed sobbing to my husband because I was terrified. I was completely disconnected from my pregnancy. I was terrified to be a mom, and through the tears I managed to get out that I wasn’t sure I’d be a good one.

Emelia entered the world with a dramatic entrance on June 29, 2013 and my life was forever changed. When I say I had to hit rock bottom before I could see in retrospect God’s plan that’s not an exaggeration. As I struggled with depression through my pregnancy it exploded after giving birth.

As I look back now¬†it’s so clear. As I look back now, while in the complete dark at the time, I can see a light poking through. I can see God’s plan. I can see His lesson(s). I can see His gifts. His teachings. I can see Him so vividly, I can see all of those things when I look at her.

My greatest fear has turned out to be one of the greatest lessons of my life. The greatest gift of my life. She is exactly where I see Jesus. Where I ran to Him. Where I was found. Where I received grace. Where I received forgiveness. Where the rest of this life just makes sense.

She is truly the most beautiful human being I am so undeserving of.

When I look at her I see kindness, compassion, and a heart so lovely that it could only have been made that way by my Heavenly Father who knitted her together.

She is in many ways my opposite but in so many my mini. She has dusted pink and purple glitter all over my life and leaves me sticker reminders everywhere I turn in this neutral loving zone I try my best to live in.

She has shown me that life isn’t black and white. In fact, it’s in those unknown grey areas where you will see true beauty beyond your imagination.

She is my best friend. The light of my life. The best thing that has ever happened to me. She saved me and I will spend the rest of my life thanking God for her and devoting myself to being the best mom I can be for her.

She wasn’t my plan. But she was His. I see it so clearly now. I see His beautiful plan unfold in her every day of my life.

We plan, God laughs.

His plans are far greater than our wildest dreams.

My sweet, Emelia Brynn, I love you so.

Thank you for making me Mama.

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She Wasn’t My Plan, but She Was His.

Mother’s Day Gift Guide

I’ve put¬†together a special mother’s day gift guide! All gifts under $200 for the special lady or ladies in your life!

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Free People may have a pretty price tag ¬†but it’s worth every penny with the quality that is offered! These Royale Flats are the perfect go to option for the crazy season ¬†changes we have here in Indiana and these have been on the major wish list for a while now!

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¬†I definitely have this on the list to purchase for a special lady in my life this Mother’s Day. ¬†Plus who doesn’t love Chip & Joanna Gaines? I’ve heard so many amazing reviews about this read! I cannot wait to bless a special lady in my life with this!

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I’ve eyed Jord watches for some time now. ¬†They are the perfect go to item to complete your outfit and so full of beautiful character! How gorgeous is this Jord Frankie watch? Sign me up!

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This affordable Mossimo mini back pack from Target¬†is the perfect purse to grab and go! I might have to just buy myself this one, for under $30, I’ll take it! Target for the win

<yet again>.

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Buy a gift from a company with so much heart behind their products!¬†The Shine Project is a place where students come after school to hand make your jewelry.¬†Over 40 scholarships have been given since 2011, and 100% of donations given to the non profit go directly to the students. Not to mention these customizable “mom” mantra¬†necklaces are just perfect! ¬†Shop now <here>.

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My soon-to-be sister-in-law introduced me to this product over the weekend and I placed a pre-order already! At just $22 this is an amazing gift to bless someone with this¬†Mother’s Day!¬†On each page of the Cultivate Journal you get a selection of specially-selected key verses to¬†write¬†out, along with space to¬†write¬† thoughts, prayers, or whatever God places on the¬†heart! <thanks Lolo>.

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I hope you’ve enjoyed the gift guide! Wishing all of you mamas or buyers for your moms a very Happy Mother’s Day filled with family and love!

xo,

Kate

 

Mother’s Day Gift Guide

Tuesday Thrift Finds

Tuesdays are our thrift mornings and it has become a ritual over here to grab my Dunkin coffee and my sweet girl her 5 little munchkins as we venture out in search of one of a kind finds.

It’s become one of my favorite parts of my week and I cannot believe the true treasure we¬†have found.

I got this shelf for $4. Yes you read that right. Just $4.

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A little Rethunk Junk paint makeover and its transformed into this sweet little beauty by our front door. Like most pieces in our house I chose the color, Cotton when giving this piece a little TLC.

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Add a little vase with a flower and there you have it!

And for the money I saved on this shelf, I can buy many more iced¬†coffees for the week so I’m definitely winning over here.

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One girl’s junk, another girl’s treasure!

My hubby’s not too crazy about Tuesdays –but hey–happy wife, happy life!

Have a  blessed week!

xo,

Kate

Tuesday Thrift Finds

Five Affordable Farmhouse Chandeliers

One of my biggest regrets back when we first purchased this house was rushing when choosing lighting.

After changing multiple lights out and wasting a little bit of money I’ve finally allowed myself to slowly purchase items and feel confident about it rather than buying on impulse and regretting later.

We lived with a hole in our kitchen ceiling for about 2 1/2 months while I waited for the chandelier to hang over our space. The wait was worth it. It always is.

Truth be told though, lighting can be EXPENSIVE. I just can’t afford a $500 chandelier no matter how beautiful or perfect¬†it may be.

Shopping on a budget and waiting for the sale has been key for me in the last few months. I’ve put together 5 different faves all under $300! All affordable and oh so pretty!

  1. First up is this Mindy 3 Light Wood Bead Chandelier. We have this exact one hanging in our bedroom above our bed and I love it. It has beautiful, natural, wood beads that hang with a golden, bronze finish!

photo-72.¬†Another wood + metal chandelier option for you! I love how feminine this light is and it’s sure to soften up any space! Can you imagine this in a nursery? So pretty!

photo-63.¬†I may or may not have this¬†vintage beauty¬†on my wish list! I’m thinking this will be a perfect fit for my daughter’s room¬†!¬†¬†I’ll stare at this beauty for a few more months before I make up my mind for sure, but for now, she’s pretty to look at. And at just under $300 I may have to watch ¬†and hope¬†for a Lowes¬†sale! Yes this beauty is from Lowes!

photo-44.¬†This 5 Light Bronze Light would be beautiful over a kitchen island! A large island is definitely something I wish we would have worked into the design of our house when we purchased! Again, another lesson I’ve added to the list during this fixer upper learning experience.¬†Such simplistic, beauty this would add to any space.

photo-55. I love all the soft curves on this World Market Wire Chandelier! Not to mention, this is priced at $169.99 with almost a 5 star rating. You can use code SUNFUN right now for an additional 20% off your order + you get free shipping with a $150 purchase!

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Thanks for reading through all my affordable chandelier faves! Hope you enjoyed browsing as much as I do!

xo,
Kate

 

 

Five Affordable Farmhouse Chandeliers